I haven’t cried this hard in a while. A friend of mine posted on facebook today that her son would have been one month old today. The past tense made me want to learn more and I found she had a photo album of their stillborn baby boy posted on facebook. And my heart is broken.
I have never cried like this for another family or another need. I’m still in tears as I’m writing this. As a daddy, it hurts so bad just to think of what that must be like. I can only imagine how I’d react since someone else’s story is getting to me this much. I can’t control it.
And as I am weeping for their loss, I’m crying over my love for my own daughter. She is a blessing and I think I’ve forgotten that. My wife had a low chance of even being able to conceive. Yet we have a 7 month old baby girl. She’s fussy. She’s a picky eater. She’d rather whine than learn how to talk. She doesn’t sleep well. But I am so in love with her. And seeing that photo album today broke my heart and allowed a new level of love to seep out into every part of me.
I am so thankful for my daughter. I am so thankful that I’m a daddy. I am so aware of the moments I’ve been taking for granted. And I am so broken for my friends who lost their little boy. The more I write the more I cry, but I had to tell this story.
Kinsleigh‘s napping now.